most of them aren’t a problem-
i’ve stopped caring about most of them-
it’s you and the flat portrayals of us
outliving dust laying in sheets atop
my fridge still breathing unsettled
conversations that command my
apartment, subverse my dreams
and rouse my solitude from its
previous understanding. if
i could cede my share of
this experience i would,
but
for those invested there
are no words to end a
one-sided dialogue
and no actions to
vanish a ghost
that isn’t dead.




i'm clever. i hope one day when i'm dead, college students will pick apart my poems and take their pens out of their mouths and point and say "i see what u did ther." that's my only real ambition.

so, as i was hanging out at my brother's today, he mentioned wanting a PS3. i told him i was cool with that, as long as i get his old PS2, and he just said "take it, i don't play it." so...sweet! i got a PS2 and it wasn't even really a present!

now i need some games. i can trade in all of his old sports games and pick up a few games with that money, i imagine. so far the games i have in mind are:

-ICO/shadow of the collussus
-dragon quest VIII
-katamari

aaand...thinking of a good RPG to pick up, too. final fantasy X looks queerdumb as all hell, so eff that. my favorite RPG is still star ocean 2, by far...does anyone know if star ocean 3 was any good?

oh, and i forgot to mention: i need some street fighter, and maybe some SNK. any recommendations?

( videogame survey )

livejournal is a damned lonely place.

i don't know what brings me back to post something random about once a month.

i think in the internet social timeline, livejournal was the roaring '20s and myspace is the reagan administration. it's the nostalgia that keeps me here. man, we had things pretty right for a while.

it's also 5 AM, so...point negated.

Some people still say Nietzsche was a bummer, but I humbly disagree. Grab a pile of his writings from the used book store, and you will be never cease being amused. To Generation Y, Nietzsche is perhaps the most relevant historical figure of all time.

Born in 1844, Nietzsche spent his childhood writing music and reading stuff. When he grew up he became a philosopher, which meant he could spend his days twatting around Europe, writing about how everything but him- and his heavy metal superstar BFF Wagner- invariably sucked. They went to parties, where they were those two guys with absurd hair that sat in the love seat and stared intensely, almost furiously at the wall as if deaf while everyone else ran around and drank.

At some point Nietzsche started getting sickly and Wagner suggested to Nietzsche's doctor that it was because Nietzsche spend the majority of his time masturbating, literally and literarily, which made Nietzsche yell "what the hell, man" and move away from everyone and write shit that was too metal for anyone in the world to understand. It was Nietzsche's Walden Pond, except with a dead god.

Unfortunately, this just made Nietzsche's condition worsen, as he spent his days being mad at everything, except maybe the jews. At some point, his health improved; and instead of thanking his lucky stars and noticing the sunshine, he went batshit crazy and decided he had lived because he was too awesome to die, and that he could do essentially anything. Including ordering the emperor of Germany to go to Rome and get shot, and writing books with titles like Why I Am So Wise and chapters like "Why I Am So Clever" and "Why I Write Such Good Books." This deep madness eventually killed him. Too awesome to die, possibly; but too hardcore to live. After all, to Nietzsche, the goal of life was not happiness- it was intensity.

An excerpt from perhaps his most personal narrative, The Hammer Speaks:

"-harder than metal, nobler than metal. Only the noblest is perfectly hard.
This new law-table do I put over you, O my brothers: Become hard!"

-Friedrich Nietzsche.

This is one of the first videos I saw on Youtube. It was taken down for a while, then put back up. It's still my favorite video on Youtube.

As you all know, Obama is our president. I couldn't be happier. But not everybody wins this election day- Prop 102's AND Prop 8 passed. This is unacceptable.

I propose we all take pictures of ourselves, paired up with somebody of the same sex, jumping over a broom. That's how the last group of Americans that were denied the right of marriage- the slaves- did it. I can see it being a successful art movement. We'll start a Facebook group and a Flickr pool.

Don't give me lip about how our 'fake' marriages demean the real sanctity of marriage, etc. because we're doing it in the name of a. love, b. freedom and c. art.

Anyway, if you're in, message me. Tell everybody you know. Let's get this huge.

i should have started like, "ayn rand: the rock band"

let it go

it's sad you'll never see
as you're looking down at me
from a pyramid of people
who make you who you need to be
what you could've created
what is in your soul?
all i see's approval,
all i see's a mold
i'd like to see you tick
nothing to be sold
all i see's a barometer
of a clockwork orange hold
let it go now,
let it go
look at yourself-
your face was pained
when you found purpose in yourself
but you'll never find it somewhere else
if you feel you're in hell
you're too busy pleasing others
instead of respecting yourself
let it go

ERIC SPENT HIS HALLOWEEN FEELING LAME AND NOT GOING TO A PARTY IN CAVE CREEK AND STAYED HOME AND MISSED A PARTY AT FRICKING MOLLYS AND igdksjgasdjgasdkjglKJGKJGNSLKGLSDJKHSLKDJHSDJKHSM<D

here's an e-mail sent by a GOP wingnut from Florida:

----- Original Message -----
From: Chairman David Storck
To: 'Storck David'
Sent: Wednesday, October 29, 2008 11:09 AM
Subject: VOTE
This e-mail was sent to me from one of our Volunteers in the Temple Terrace
office. If you think it can help us win this election please pass it on. This
election is now in our hands everyone can make a difference.
Thanks
Dave
THE THREAT:
HERE IN TEMPLE TERRACE, FL OUR REPUBLICAN HQ IS
ONE BLOCK AWAY FROM OUR LIBRARY, WHICH IS AN
EARLY VOTING SITE.
I SEE CARLOADS OF BLACK OBAMA SUPPORTERS
COMING FROM THE INNER CITY TO CAST THEIR VOTES
FOR OBAMA. THIS IS THEIR CHANCE TO GET A BLACK
PRESIDENT AND THEY SEEM TO CARE LITTLE THAT HE IS
AT MINIMUM, SOCIALIST, AND PROBABLY MARXIST IN
HIS CORE BELIEFS. AFTER ALL, HE IS BLACK--NO
EXPERIENCE OR ACCOMPLISHMENTS--BUT HE IS BLACK.
I ALSO SEE YOUNG COLLEGE STUDENTS AND THEIR
PROFESSORS FROM USF PARKING THEIR CARS WITH THE
PROMINENT 'OBAMA' BUMPER STICKERS. THE
STUDENTS ARE ENTHUSIASTIC TO BE VOTING IN A
HISTORIC ELECTION WHERE THERE MAY BE THE FIRST
BLACK PRESIDENT.
THE COLLEGE PROFESSORS, PARTICULARLY IN THE SOCIAL
SCIENCES, FOR THE MOST PART HAVE LITTLE OR NO
EXPERIENCE IN THE WORK-A-DAY WORLD.
THEIR LIFE EXPERIENCE HAS BEEN MOSTLY ACADEMIC
UNDER THE TUTELAGE OF LIBERAL COLLEGE
PROFESSORS. FOR THEM, A LITTLE SOCIALISM AND ANTIAMERICANISM
IS A GOOD THING. AFTER ALL, IF
TERRORISTS ATTACK US, WE MUST HAVE DONE
SOMETHING TO PROVOKE THEM.
YOU AND I UNDERSTAND THE DANGERS THE POTENTIAL
OBAMA PRESIDENCY PRESENTS TO OUR WAY OF LIFE.
THE SUPPRESSION OF FREE SPEECH, INTRODUCING
UNION INTIMIDATION IN THE WORKPLACE, INCREASED
DANGERS TO OUR NATION BY TERRORISTS, CUTTING
OUR DEFENSE BUDGET BY 25%, TURNING OUR TAX
SYSTEM INTO A NATIONAL WELFARE SYSTEM AND
ECONOMIC POLICIES THAT COULD DRIVE US INTO A
DEPRESSION.
THERE IS ONLY ONE WAY TO
STOP OBAMA: VOTE !!!-------
(AND GET EVERYONE YOU
KNOW TO VOTE)
ONLY YOU AND I CAN STOP
OBAMA NOW ! !
SEVEN DAYS TO GO AND WE
MUST ACT IMMEDIATELY..
A PLAN OF ACTION FOR YOU AND I:
• VOTE. OBAMA IS ADVERTISING ON TV ASKING ALL
HIS SUPPORTERS TO TAKE A DAY OFF WORK OR
CLASS TO VOTE.
• CONTACT PERSONALLY EVERYONE YOU KNOW
REMINDING THEM TO VOTE AND HOW IMPORTANT
IT IS. PARENTS, VOTING-AGE CHILDREN, IN-LAWS,
CO-WORKERS, CHURCH CONTACTS, SCHOOL
CONTACTS, BUSINESS CONTACTS. MAKE A LIST AND
CONTACT THEM.
• SEND THIS MESSAGE TO EVERYONE ON YOUR EMAIL
LIST THAT WANTS TO DEFEAT OBAMA.
YOUR EMAIL IS AN EFFECTIVE TOOL IF YOU USE IT WISELY
AND PROMPTLY. YOU CAN REACH 10,000,000 PEOPLE IN
THE NEXT SEVEN DAYS IF AS FEW AS TEN PEOPLE ON
YOUR LIST TAKE PROMPT ACTION AND TEN PEOPLE ON
THEIR LIST AND TEN PEOPLE ON THEIR LIST...YOU GET
THE IDEA.
LET'S ALL PRAY AND WORK AND WE WILL SURELY
CELEBRATE OUR VICTORY ON 11/5/08.
David A. Storck Chairman
Hillsborough County
Republican Party
chairmanstorck@earthlink.net
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I can't even get upset about this. It makes me so damn happy! Damn right they've voting bitches! Ahahahahahahah!